In my old age, I've decided that there are a number of things I need to work on about myself. And several of these things have been brought to my attention rather recently. The whole Kim debachle (did I spell that right?) made me/us realize that I need to work on my anger issues. Surprised? Don't be. Yeah, apparently me and a certain hot woman cop have some things in common (I won't go into all that...). Although I'd like to think that my issues aren't as bad as hers. I just yell a lot. And sometimes I throw things. But not at anyone. I just have temper tantrums like I'm 6 again. At any rate, I've been working on this, and it's going pretty well so far.
My other thing is that I want everyone in the world to be just like me. I want people to think the same way I do, have the same morals and ideals, etc. Religion is not included in this. Like back in the day, with the whole Kirsten/Thea thing - I could not (and still cannot) fathom how someone who was supposed to be my friend, would allow my significant other to cheat on me with them. I mean, HELLO. I would say "dude - you're dating my friend. I'm not going to have any part of that." Instead of what did happen which was "who gives a crap about Mel, I'm getting in her girlfriend's pants." I'm not bitter or anything.
Similarly, I want people to treat my friends the way I would treat them if we were in a relationship. I would spoil them, cater to them, and treat them like the amazing, beautiful people they are. And when I see their love interest/significant other acting in ways that aren't how I would, I get upset. And then I run my mouth and say things without taking into consideration how my friend feels about that love interest/significant other. Which then gets me into a mess. Or what I perceive is a mess, despite what the other person says.
And the more I write/think about all of this, it's starting to seem like I wouldn't think anyone else is good enough for them but me. Which isn't quite accurate, but sort of is. If only I could clone myself with a penis, then it might just work. It's hard to explain. I don't want a physical/romantic relationship - I just want people to be like me that they date. HA! I never realized how narcissistic I am. Great. Just what I wanted.
It really ties into the fact that I wish people would see themselves the same way I see them.
And the plot thickens....
I just need to shut my mouth, and let people make their own decisions without putting in my two cents. And I definitely need to take into consideration other people's feelings before I start talking. Or emailing as the case may be.
Open mouth.
Insert foot.
Chew.
Swallow.

On a lighter note, I get to go tubing next weekend, and then the week after that I get to go to the beach for 2 days with my sister and my nephew.