All systems are go…

The wedding is on, the anxiety is up, and trish has moved to texas. Yee haw! There really was no need for me to panic – I just like to freak out and think the worst. I’m *REALLY* good at that. It’s one of my strengths.

In the meantime, Kim and I are planning on moving to the thriving metropolis of Harrisonburg. Being in the ‘burg again should be interesting. I’ll be happy to have Klines and Mr. J’s frequently again. Oooh and Daves! Yum. If only they had a Krispy Kreme and an Olive Garden I’d be set. And weigh 300 pounds. But who really cares?

I was voted “most polite” at my class reunion 2 weeks ago. I guess because I didn’t trash talk anyone too loudly. What the hell were they thinking????

ri-dic-u-lous.

The wedding may or may not happen at this point. This weekend will determine all. Kim’s ex has been causing problems, and now Kim is all confused. When it ended between them (badly, I might add) Kim never really got over it before I came on the scene in an attempt to sweep her off my feet. Anyhoo – now Trish is moving to Texas and is saying how she still loves Kim and wants to be with her blah blah friggin blah. And because Kim is so open and honest, she’s telling me all about her struggle. So basically, I got the invitations to give to people, but I haven’t handed them out because I don’t know what the hell is going on. At any rate, this weekend while I’m having a joyous time at my class reunion, Kim is going to be hashing things out with Trish. So I suppose by Sunday I’ll know if we’re on for a wedding or not. But then I think am I a friggin moron? Why should I want to be with this person who may or may not want to be with me? Because I think poor Kim is confused. I know she wants to be with me, but she wonders the “what if” part because of how things between her and Trish ended. I can’t say I blame her really. I mean, if any of my exes came back and said they’d want to be with me again, I would consider it. If only to eff them over like they did me. Except Kay. She didn’t screw me over. But Meredith and Kirsten certainly did. Anyhoo – the sad thing is that thinking about Kim and Trish getting back together doesn’t really bother me. At least not at this point. The only thing that bothers me is having to tell everyone the wedding is off. Especially Laurie and Catrina, since they bought plane tickets and everything. But I think they’d be understanding. And I would definitely offer to pay for part of their tickets to come out here anyhow. If they can’t get their money back. I don’t know how that works. I guess I’ll just feel like an idiot. “Just kidding – I’m not really getting married.” I wonder if that’s how my sister felt when she and her fiancée broke up. Hey – it’s actually family tradition. My brother had a fiancée and they broke up, my sister had a fiancée and they broke up – I guess now it’s my turn. Ha! That actually does make me feel better. And puts a fun spin on it. Whatever. Keep your fingers crossed for me. Whichever way you hope it works out.