The powers that be have cancelled the soap opera

I haven't heard back from Mike. I even sent him an email asking if he was ever going to email me back. Eh. I'm sure I'll hear from him again in 10 years.

Response

So let's remember - I asked him why he emailed me, what was going on, etc. This is the response. Forgive his lack of punctuation and correct English.

i don't know why I e mailed you. I wasted the last eleven years of my life and I guess with no family or friends stumbling across you at classmates might help me re focus. I was idling when you met me, full of potential but no desire to do anything with it. you gave me a reason to try to be someone. when we broke up i TURNED MY BACK ON THE POSSIBIBILITY OF HAVING A "NORMAL" LIFE sorry not yelling or trying to give u a guilt trip. I miss being young and i miss being able to trust. My wife has left me wondering as to whether or not she was off cheating and you remember that based on size I shoudn't worry.... but I have caught her places and she has left for a day and left me with her two plus our baby and before we got married I had a sperm test and a biopsy of my testicle that left the doctor to say no children then 9 mos later after leaving for 10 hours I find her at a phone booth 3 weeks later and she has a pregnancy test..... He looks so much like her I can;t tell and I don't want a dna test because what if hes not mine then I;ve invested again and get hurt again and he gets hurt so I'm trying to suck it up trust her love her and the kids and my whole life revolves around her and this. I'm not a cheater I've never given her a reason to worry about it but she does and as for a job i'm a carpenter/plumber/painter/landscape architect/pothead/ and I wish I could start it all over I can't breathe, I was diagnosed with bronchieactesis in 05 and still smoke cigarettes. I'm a loser and I wanted you to know. I'm sorry for laying this on you I don't mean anything by it I don't want you to personalize this just know that our time together meant a lot and I know you did care so if you still do care take all this with a grain of salt.

So I again wrote him back and told him several times to stop smoking pot. I also told him that maybe there's an emotional disconnect and that's why she's cheating. I said "it's not always about sex." And I don't know why he's reminding me that I should know he doesn't have to worry about his size - I know nothing of his size as I didn't go near that area. I don't like boys.

I also told him that he needs to forget about who actually fathered the kid, and that if he loves him he should be his daddy no matter what.

I feel like this is a bad soap opera. I don't like watching because it's the same thing each time, but I keep finding myself drawn back into it.

Eh. Whatever. I'm still checking my email frequently.

A response

So after I emailed Mike saying "it's been 10 years...what's up?" he replied with the following.

"got married five years ago to a friend from middle school she had two daughters and I jumped in thought i was ready and she had a baby boy michael dylyn 9 2 04 we split up 12-05 got back together 9-06 and it is rocky at best shes jealous and i could get thrown out for doing this as harmless as it is . I;m proud of your choice of careers. I can't remember how much i told u about my life prior to fluvanna but yeah i admire u."

What the hell?

So I wrote back thanking him for appreciating my job (it's not every day someone says that to me), and then I said "What are you doing these days? What makes it rocky, and why the hell are you emailing me if it's going to get you thrown out?" I haven't gotten a response back yet.

It'll probably be another 10 years before I hear from him again.

It's getting annoying. I don't like when people magically reappear in my life, say two things to me, and then disappear all over again. It's frustrating. And despite my best efforts, I'm actually worried about him. I know he's probably still an ass, but I still wanted him to be better than how he was brought up. I think most of my concern is for the kids in his home. I don't think he would do anything to them, but I wonder if he has a volatile relationship with that woman that is impacting the kids. DAMN MY CPS BACKGROUND!!!

I've decided I don't care at all anymore. I'm no longer curious to know where he's been and what he's doing.

I don't care.

And because I don't care, I'm going to keep checking my email every 5 minutes, just to reinforce this thought.