Be careful what you wish for

I didn't mean it. But now it looks like it's going to happen despite what I want. I took the lack of bags to be a good sign. I apparently was just hoping and saw what I wanted to see, not what was really happening. When really, a dentist appointment this week is what has prevented the inevitable thus far.

I have lost 4 pounds in 2 days. And no doubt this is just the beginning.

I don't know what else I can do or say, I just keep repeating the same things over and over. But it's obviously not the right thing. I thought yesterday was better, but again, I let my hopes blind me from reality.

I hope this is not the beginning of the end, but it most likely is. So forgive me if I drop off the face of the earth and don't talk to anyone for a while.